Hello

I thought I would take a break from trying to figure out this blogging thing and give you a little info on me.

I really don't know where to start...

I'll be 30 years old in December.

I hate the thought of getting older. More to do to survive, but less to live for.

I have 2 children, both boys.

They are my reason for living.

I work full-time.

I don't work a job that makes me happy. I'm not good at it. I don't like to disappoint those who have faith, so I continue showing up each day and busting my ass for a job that drains me. 

I am Bipolar.

I struggle with depression daily.

I am tired.

I am in pain.

I cry.

Most mornings, I dread getting out of bed.

My anxiety has got to the point where I feel like I am loosing control.

My mind never allows me to win.

I finally took the 1st step towards going back to school. I'm actually excited but of course my mind is busy on what this could do to my family. I would have to go to part-time, which means less money. Less money means that my family and I would have to struggle a little more then what we are now. I want to take care of my family for the long haul, but as a mother you never want to think that what you have chosen to do for yourself may not be the best for them.

I enjoy to read.

I'll read about anything as long as I can connect with the story on some level.

I like to write.

I'll never have the courage or the brains to write a book, but I still love the idea of  telling a story.

I guess I'll end this blog here for now. Maybe I will post something later. 

Time for more COFFEE.

I NEED COFFEE.

XOXO,

ASHLEY